Monday, July 27, 2009

I have nothing left to lose

I have been officially cut off from my family, by my family.

It started with the health insurance. My mom saying someone had been using my name to get prescriptions (she knew full well that it was me) and cut off the flex card.
Now, my cell phone has been disconnected. Congratulations, Mom, you have officially cut off your last line of communication with me. Don't expect to hear from me unless I'm dying.

It hurts, though. I'm 18, almost 19. I just got engaged (btw, we're engaged :D). I should be able to call my mom in one of my happiest moments and have her be happy with me. I should have my mom to help me plan my wedding. I should be able to go to her with anything. But I can't, because she decided to "teach me how to be independent." I didn't realize cutting me off from my family was teaching me that. And last I checked, you were upset because I was cutting myself off.

1 comment:

pygalgia said...

Thanks for stopping by and commenting on my blog.
As I read your blog, I was touched by what a sharp, sensitive young lady you seem to be. While I don't talk about it much, I've been fighting with depression and anxiety since I was a teenager (I'm 50 now), and you have my sympathy. I know it's hard to accept, but keep on keeping on day by day and you'll get through the storms.
Sorry that NAU didn't work out for you, but changing colleges can be a smart move to help find what you want to learn. Good luck going forward!
Feel free to stay in contact if you wish. I'm not a "facebook" guy, but you can email me, saarey@hotmail.com, any time.
Best wishes