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I honestly don't get it.

This morning, I realized that I just walk out in front of cars to cross the street without checking to see if they're going to stop. I honestly don't care what happens at the moment.

I'm in this weird state of not quite depression, more apathy than anything else. I'm on a downkick with the self-esteem, I get anxious really easily, I'm super stressed out, and to top it all off, I had a panic attack.

I can't keep going like this.