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Here's what I'm wondering.

Why am I expected to be mature enough to choose something to study in college and spend hundreds of thousands of dollars on that study, but at the exact same time, I'm not mature enough to know that I want to spend the rest of my life with someone?

I'm not jumping into anything, because I want to be absolutely sure. But why isn't it okay for me to say, at almost 19, that I want to marry the man I'm with right now?

I have no idea what I want to do with my life, but I know I want to spend it with him.